8 days left unitl i go to the dermatologists regarding this brown line on my toe nail. Ive been torturing myself daily reading online about melanoma and watching videos and its making me so terrified but i still keep doing it i cant stop! I have been crying non stop, and just have this complete feeling of dread im going to die! I have two young children and i cant bare to leave them, they are my world! I hate what is happening to me so much i dont understand any of it at all 🙁 wish the days would hurry up, not knowing is the worst! 🙁 I am not eating properly can barely be bothered to dress or do anything that involves enjoying myself at all. I feel so helpless.
