Hi beautiful people! Reading this thread brings me Hope! **Thank you all, & Healing Light to you!** I had a melanoma (mole) removed in 2001 (plus 2 surgeries to remove/test lymph nodes & glands, which were clear!)
*19 years later*… BAM! My left leg went numb, & I had a focal seizure in that leg (frightening as heck, but I breathed my way through it.)
Scans showed 2 tumors in my brain; 1 in my lung; & 1 in my middle intestine. Recent MRIs & a colonoscopy failed to spot any of these tumors, dammit. What?! They apparently grew quickly.
So, the terrible year of 2020 got in a final punch with this diagnosis of metastatic melanoma, stage IV. And I started 2021 (celebrating my 52nd birthday) with brain surgery, targeted radiation, & 3 weeks in the hospital, with NO visitors because of covid. Arrgghhh, isn’t that rotten?!
HOWEVER! ~ I’m responding super well to immunotherapy! All the tumors (including 17 tiny new ones that had appeared in my brain) have shrunk ~ & some can no longer be detected. Opdivo continues!
7 months after the December ’20 diagnosis, my left leg numbness continues, & I’m still using my wheelchair & walker ~ but I’m also taking steps without them!
I’m remaining (mostly) deeply optimistic… I continue to hear my Inner Voice respond with calm, grounded positivity when my panic, anxiety, & morbid fears arise. I light a candle every morning & meditate on images of Healing Light!
Something that continues to nag me is my longing for a partner ~ a lover, supporter, cuddler, & co-conspirator in everything, profound & mundane. Some of you know, it’s very, very hard to go through this as a single person.
So, I’m here to gain & give fellowship & support! PLEASE point me in the direction of active threads & groups (including on other interweb sites). Thanks, & Best Blessings***
