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- October 26, 2015 at 11:20 pm
My derm called and said intial tests showed lump isn't a cyst and something about lymphocytes being present and blue cells..sorry it was like Charlie Brown's teacher talking. I was upset with him because now it's being sent out for further testing. He said it still can be a number of things but I told him I've been down this road before and with my history, it should've been tested from the start for melanoma. He has "basic" path in his facility so when anything is suspect he sends out. Now I have to wait how many more days??? This derm has been great for 5 years; feel like ball was dropped here.
So I freaked out and emailed my oncologist to have scan moved up which she will not do because she can;t say it's melanoma and if it is pathology will dictate what she wants to do in regards to scan. She's great and I feel like a jerk because I get so worked up with her. I just can't help but second guess everything now….everytime I think I have this beat…
I appreciate everyone's support and responses over the years. This forum has been great to vent. Wishing you all nothing but the best.
Josh
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- October 27, 2015 at 12:23 am
Sorry about the waiting Josh…I know what your saying about reacting to quick. I do the same thing, a person wants answers and we want them now. Unfortunately we all know how slow the system can work. I hope you can find a little peace until you receive some answers. Thanks for the update.
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- October 27, 2015 at 12:23 am
Sorry about the waiting Josh…I know what your saying about reacting to quick. I do the same thing, a person wants answers and we want them now. Unfortunately we all know how slow the system can work. I hope you can find a little peace until you receive some answers. Thanks for the update.
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- October 27, 2015 at 12:23 am
Sorry about the waiting Josh…I know what your saying about reacting to quick. I do the same thing, a person wants answers and we want them now. Unfortunately we all know how slow the system can work. I hope you can find a little peace until you receive some answers. Thanks for the update.
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- October 27, 2015 at 12:37 am
Josh,
Sorry you've had this experience. The waiting is the worst part. I don't know about you but for me, it's the uncertainty with which I have trouble. You have been through so much, and you always prevail. Keep positive and remember there are many treatments available now. Sending prayers your way that the pathology is negative and this is all a bad dream.
Blessings,
Tricia
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- October 27, 2015 at 12:37 am
Josh,
Sorry you've had this experience. The waiting is the worst part. I don't know about you but for me, it's the uncertainty with which I have trouble. You have been through so much, and you always prevail. Keep positive and remember there are many treatments available now. Sending prayers your way that the pathology is negative and this is all a bad dream.
Blessings,
Tricia
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- October 27, 2015 at 12:37 am
Josh,
Sorry you've had this experience. The waiting is the worst part. I don't know about you but for me, it's the uncertainty with which I have trouble. You have been through so much, and you always prevail. Keep positive and remember there are many treatments available now. Sending prayers your way that the pathology is negative and this is all a bad dream.
Blessings,
Tricia
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- October 27, 2015 at 12:44 am
Hi Josh,
Can't say much other than that sure is a double whammy on the anxiety scale. Hard to believe that you have to wait even longer. Don't feel like a jerk, with coordinating the medical appointments for my husband, I have found I have very little tolerance anymore for these kind of mistakes. Also, I once went Shirley MacLaine in Terms of Endearment in a hospital when my mother was losing a battle with cancer. So don't worry about venting or losing it with our medical system, sometimes it seems that they actively try to do the least logical thing. Hoping you find out good news and/or any news very quickly so you know your next step. Prayers for you and your family.
Best,
Jackie
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- October 27, 2015 at 12:44 am
Hi Josh,
Can't say much other than that sure is a double whammy on the anxiety scale. Hard to believe that you have to wait even longer. Don't feel like a jerk, with coordinating the medical appointments for my husband, I have found I have very little tolerance anymore for these kind of mistakes. Also, I once went Shirley MacLaine in Terms of Endearment in a hospital when my mother was losing a battle with cancer. So don't worry about venting or losing it with our medical system, sometimes it seems that they actively try to do the least logical thing. Hoping you find out good news and/or any news very quickly so you know your next step. Prayers for you and your family.
Best,
Jackie
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- October 27, 2015 at 12:44 am
Hi Josh,
Can't say much other than that sure is a double whammy on the anxiety scale. Hard to believe that you have to wait even longer. Don't feel like a jerk, with coordinating the medical appointments for my husband, I have found I have very little tolerance anymore for these kind of mistakes. Also, I once went Shirley MacLaine in Terms of Endearment in a hospital when my mother was losing a battle with cancer. So don't worry about venting or losing it with our medical system, sometimes it seems that they actively try to do the least logical thing. Hoping you find out good news and/or any news very quickly so you know your next step. Prayers for you and your family.
Best,
Jackie
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- October 27, 2015 at 3:13 am
I was so in hopes you were going to have answers today, Josh. You would think that the professionals would understand the anxiety of waiting and do their best to rule out the things we fear the most. Hang in there; we're right there with you.
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- October 27, 2015 at 3:13 am
I was so in hopes you were going to have answers today, Josh. You would think that the professionals would understand the anxiety of waiting and do their best to rule out the things we fear the most. Hang in there; we're right there with you.
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- October 27, 2015 at 3:13 am
I was so in hopes you were going to have answers today, Josh. You would think that the professionals would understand the anxiety of waiting and do their best to rule out the things we fear the most. Hang in there; we're right there with you.
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- October 27, 2015 at 5:39 am
Sorry Josh, that was not the route you or I would be expecting, considering our circumstances! That darn derm did drop the ball and that's a hard one to swallow! I've been in a few similar situations, hindsight always being 20/20, you so wish you would have spoken up and pressed your concerns with a bit more attitude and urgency! I suspect you are a nice guy with a big heart and assume medical professionals know your situation and will take the most proactive course, but I too have learned a few lessons there as well! That being said, I always say to myself…..am I feeling good today? and if I am….. I know I must make the best of this day regardless of my anxiety level. And it's a hard thing to do, digging out of this pit of melanoma doom what if's. But again I say, if I'm feeling good then I must give all my energy to something else, not melanoma, not today! Keeping on with the upside of your positive mental attitude helps in your melanoma battle. Stay strong, stay positive! Thinking good thoughts and a positive outcome for your biopsy!
Swanee
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- October 27, 2015 at 5:39 am
Sorry Josh, that was not the route you or I would be expecting, considering our circumstances! That darn derm did drop the ball and that's a hard one to swallow! I've been in a few similar situations, hindsight always being 20/20, you so wish you would have spoken up and pressed your concerns with a bit more attitude and urgency! I suspect you are a nice guy with a big heart and assume medical professionals know your situation and will take the most proactive course, but I too have learned a few lessons there as well! That being said, I always say to myself…..am I feeling good today? and if I am….. I know I must make the best of this day regardless of my anxiety level. And it's a hard thing to do, digging out of this pit of melanoma doom what if's. But again I say, if I'm feeling good then I must give all my energy to something else, not melanoma, not today! Keeping on with the upside of your positive mental attitude helps in your melanoma battle. Stay strong, stay positive! Thinking good thoughts and a positive outcome for your biopsy!
Swanee
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- October 27, 2015 at 5:39 am
Sorry Josh, that was not the route you or I would be expecting, considering our circumstances! That darn derm did drop the ball and that's a hard one to swallow! I've been in a few similar situations, hindsight always being 20/20, you so wish you would have spoken up and pressed your concerns with a bit more attitude and urgency! I suspect you are a nice guy with a big heart and assume medical professionals know your situation and will take the most proactive course, but I too have learned a few lessons there as well! That being said, I always say to myself…..am I feeling good today? and if I am….. I know I must make the best of this day regardless of my anxiety level. And it's a hard thing to do, digging out of this pit of melanoma doom what if's. But again I say, if I'm feeling good then I must give all my energy to something else, not melanoma, not today! Keeping on with the upside of your positive mental attitude helps in your melanoma battle. Stay strong, stay positive! Thinking good thoughts and a positive outcome for your biopsy!
Swanee
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- October 28, 2015 at 3:08 am
Thanks all!!! This is just one frustrating disease and yes the waiting is the worst. I'm just grateful I have this place to come to and there are others who are dealing with same things. I've been fortunate so far and plan on continuing on that path. There are many others who have greater struggles than I do and I think my emotion is driven by the thought of leaving my young kids and the fact that I struggle seeing people suffer and I can't help them. My dad lost his mother to breast cancer in 1967…she was 42 and he was18. He doesn;t show emotion much but I can see the pain on his face and hear the hurt in his voice to this day. That has stayed with me since I was little and he would talk about his mom; which he doesn't do much…even to this day. I guess my point in all of this is to say I'm grateful to have the support of everyone here….and people who go well beyond…yes Bubbles I'm talking about you. I go to your blog frequently for hope and inspiration. I don't comment a lot because I don't feel I have much to add…I'm just the bleeding heart type. Best thing I found was this forum when I was diagnosed in early 2011….Rebecca and Bob, Jerry from Fauq, AlDakota22, Charlie S…some of the first people to reach out to me. Felt like I found a home….and ever since it's been a place to come to where people understand you. So thank you to all of you; wishing you the best.
Josh
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- October 28, 2015 at 3:08 am
Thanks all!!! This is just one frustrating disease and yes the waiting is the worst. I'm just grateful I have this place to come to and there are others who are dealing with same things. I've been fortunate so far and plan on continuing on that path. There are many others who have greater struggles than I do and I think my emotion is driven by the thought of leaving my young kids and the fact that I struggle seeing people suffer and I can't help them. My dad lost his mother to breast cancer in 1967…she was 42 and he was18. He doesn;t show emotion much but I can see the pain on his face and hear the hurt in his voice to this day. That has stayed with me since I was little and he would talk about his mom; which he doesn't do much…even to this day. I guess my point in all of this is to say I'm grateful to have the support of everyone here….and people who go well beyond…yes Bubbles I'm talking about you. I go to your blog frequently for hope and inspiration. I don't comment a lot because I don't feel I have much to add…I'm just the bleeding heart type. Best thing I found was this forum when I was diagnosed in early 2011….Rebecca and Bob, Jerry from Fauq, AlDakota22, Charlie S…some of the first people to reach out to me. Felt like I found a home….and ever since it's been a place to come to where people understand you. So thank you to all of you; wishing you the best.
Josh
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- October 28, 2015 at 3:08 am
Thanks all!!! This is just one frustrating disease and yes the waiting is the worst. I'm just grateful I have this place to come to and there are others who are dealing with same things. I've been fortunate so far and plan on continuing on that path. There are many others who have greater struggles than I do and I think my emotion is driven by the thought of leaving my young kids and the fact that I struggle seeing people suffer and I can't help them. My dad lost his mother to breast cancer in 1967…she was 42 and he was18. He doesn;t show emotion much but I can see the pain on his face and hear the hurt in his voice to this day. That has stayed with me since I was little and he would talk about his mom; which he doesn't do much…even to this day. I guess my point in all of this is to say I'm grateful to have the support of everyone here….and people who go well beyond…yes Bubbles I'm talking about you. I go to your blog frequently for hope and inspiration. I don't comment a lot because I don't feel I have much to add…I'm just the bleeding heart type. Best thing I found was this forum when I was diagnosed in early 2011….Rebecca and Bob, Jerry from Fauq, AlDakota22, Charlie S…some of the first people to reach out to me. Felt like I found a home….and ever since it's been a place to come to where people understand you. So thank you to all of you; wishing you the best.
Josh
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