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- December 12, 2015 at 4:50 am
I visit often and don't post a lot, i constantly look for topics that might answer a question or set my mind at ease. Afterall, my husband was only diagnosed in May……only one tumor in his lung, lymph nodes affected…but not the tumor burdon of some.
Early on I picked up on Arties journey, I followed his posts and felt so touched by the sheer hard work he put into his battle. With humor he described his journey, his ups and downs even his pain. He kept fighting. Selfishly I felt solace in thinking that my husbands was caught early, he is responding to the BRAF combo…we wouldn' have to walk in Artie's shoes.
I have been working like mad for months now, keep moving, supporting Charles ….keep moving so I can't stop to think what If? After I read about Artie, I cried harder than I have in 5 months. I never knew him, but I feel I knew him. I cried for him, I cried for us – for the fear that we might be just at the tip of an ice berg of what our next 3 years might unravel to be. I am positive……but the fear came with Artie's passing, how will we handle choices he was faced with…..will we ever have to make those choices.
This is just temporarty sadness insanity, tomorrow is a new day and we will decoraate for the holiday…plan for years to come. With hope………but I will not forget Artie, Life has forever changed, measured by blood tests and scans, spots and derm visits….but we have life, now we just need to hang onto Artie's courage and humor.
Take care everyone, all stages – with all the new medicines maybe the melanoma beast can be tamed.
Rita
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- December 13, 2015 at 1:09 pm
Rita,
It's strange how this board becomes your "go to" on hard days or decision times. It's like our secret place most people in our world don't know and would never understand anyway. We could not explain to our friends why Artie was so important to us or why we feel so affected by his battle. He was somehow the heart of our board☺️!
I felt the dark melanoma cloud the night I read he was gone too. I am still fighting it off. We got bad scans, I went to my board support and saw that I didn't get to say bye to Artie. He had written me 5 days earlier and I didn't respond….now I feel faced with counting down those dreaded months. Artie made 30. 30 months. 2 1/2 years. The holidays. It's not long, 30 months. My 18 yr old son is at month 15—-Timor load like Artie.
I will keep you in my group thoughts when I pray for all the smart, great people plucked out of their lives randomly to do this unfathomable journey! We must be some of the tough ones and our boys must be even better!!
Best—have a great holiday!
kerri(momofjake)
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- December 13, 2015 at 1:09 pm
Rita,
It's strange how this board becomes your "go to" on hard days or decision times. It's like our secret place most people in our world don't know and would never understand anyway. We could not explain to our friends why Artie was so important to us or why we feel so affected by his battle. He was somehow the heart of our board☺️!
I felt the dark melanoma cloud the night I read he was gone too. I am still fighting it off. We got bad scans, I went to my board support and saw that I didn't get to say bye to Artie. He had written me 5 days earlier and I didn't respond….now I feel faced with counting down those dreaded months. Artie made 30. 30 months. 2 1/2 years. The holidays. It's not long, 30 months. My 18 yr old son is at month 15—-Timor load like Artie.
I will keep you in my group thoughts when I pray for all the smart, great people plucked out of their lives randomly to do this unfathomable journey! We must be some of the tough ones and our boys must be even better!!
Best—have a great holiday!
kerri(momofjake)
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- December 13, 2015 at 1:09 pm
Rita,
It's strange how this board becomes your "go to" on hard days or decision times. It's like our secret place most people in our world don't know and would never understand anyway. We could not explain to our friends why Artie was so important to us or why we feel so affected by his battle. He was somehow the heart of our board☺️!
I felt the dark melanoma cloud the night I read he was gone too. I am still fighting it off. We got bad scans, I went to my board support and saw that I didn't get to say bye to Artie. He had written me 5 days earlier and I didn't respond….now I feel faced with counting down those dreaded months. Artie made 30. 30 months. 2 1/2 years. The holidays. It's not long, 30 months. My 18 yr old son is at month 15—-Timor load like Artie.
I will keep you in my group thoughts when I pray for all the smart, great people plucked out of their lives randomly to do this unfathomable journey! We must be some of the tough ones and our boys must be even better!!
Best—have a great holiday!
kerri(momofjake)
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