Melly is not the only thing that can get you….:-)

I am not getting notices that there have been replies to my post.   My hubby told me I had been LAND BLASTED for calling MELANOMA – MELLY …. by someone named ANON.   Oops….there I go again, with that silly nicknaming.   I'm sorry I'm the kind of person that does have a light heart, and I am called the SUPER DUPER NICKNAMER ON FACEBOOK, so there you have it.  GUILTY !    One of the reasons I do that ANON is that I am very, very, very ill myself.   I am in more pain than my precious Wayne has ever seen or experienced in his life with cancer 3 times…….and he will tell you so as my caretaker for 27 years now.     One of the reasons I do take SHORTCUTS (NICKNAMES) is because I'm in so much pain, gut wrenching pain with about a hundred other symptoms to go with it with several illnesses myself, –  but  I need to communicate on the PUTER (short for COMPUTER in case you're wondering)….because I am shut in, and I have no life because of these terribly debilitating illnesses and I can get more typed if I take SHORTCUTS and use NICKNAMES.    Especially if something or someone has 3 syllables, I really take a shortcut.   You are the only  person who has not enjoy my personality and humor in VERY DIRE CIRCUMSTANCES !    200 people on TEAM WAYNE PRAYER WARRIORS and all of them were blessed by the courage and FAITH we/I had to write with such candor, pain, tears, and yet HUMOR.   They all call it MELLY !   Go figure…….   

Sometimes when I'm writing MELLY, I'm actually crying over this AWFUL, GUT WRENCHING, PAINFUL, LIFE STEALING, MURDEROUS ILLNESS.    Does that make you feel better ?    I have a lot more adjectives too, but will spare you.   Like we call ZELBORAF  = Z or ZEL.   Sure not taking anything away from that serious drug that has thus far saved my precious husband's life.   We have been through hell and back in 22 years of fighting cancer and I'm the last person in the world to MAKE FUN OF IT.   I don't know what you did BLACK FRIDAY, but we went shopping……..for our CEMETERY PLOTS !    Yes, I / we do have a wicked sense of humor.   If we don't laugh sometimes, we can't get through it.   We didn't plan Black Friday for it, but it was the only day my legs would hold me up to get there in this serious and GUT WRENCHING PAIN AND SICKNESS I am in.    MELLY IS NOT THE ONLY SERIOUS ILLNESS in this world, ANON, and we all learn how to deal with it without going insane or offing ourselves in our own way.    We choose FAITH, LAUGHTER, RELAXING, MAKING FUN "SOMETIMES", and also CRYING OUR EYEBALLS OUT and SCREAMING TO THE TOP OF THE ROOF WHEN NEEDED.   

Honestly, I don't know if you are the same person that comes on here all the time giving nothing BUT GRIEF, but you might just learn something here about LIVING while we are all still ALIVE !    I bet it's one of my SENSITIVE RELATIVES behind the ANON – which is also why I prolly turned out the way I did.    Having watched my dad eaten to death with cancer took it's toll on me watching all the seriousness –  and for 5 years we were DARED TO HAVE ANY FUN OR LAUGH OR HAVE ANY JOY ABOUT ANYTHING IN LIFE AT ALL !    That is not who I am !!!     You be who you are and let me be who I am…..and you just might find that even in the GUTTER there is JOY and FUN to be found if you allow yourself to.      

I wish you the very best.   I pray the Lord heals you and everyone on this board.   I pray you find the COURAGE to come out from behind that MASK  of ANON you wear when you are CUTTING SOMEONE DOWN FOR SOMETHING YOU DON'T LIKE, for no good reason at all.   You could not find a kinder, more loving person in the world if you tried than I am,  but my personality is what it is.   LET GO AND STOP TRYING TO "CONTROL" people.  It really is OK to be JOYFUL and HAVE FUN sometimes – even while bawling.   TRY IT – you might like it and it might just lighten your load as well.

I'm very sorry for your cancer.   I'm sorry you are suffering.   I'm sorry you can't find any light.   I'm sorry you have to take it out on me, but that's OK, I can take it, because I've been through enough in my life to take a bashing and KEEP ON SMILING and KEEP on TRYING to make folks smile every now and then in the darkest of situations (which is what I do as a counselor to many with many devastating problems from my own bed).     I hope you can find that too……it really does help to make the darkness a little lighter, and while the pain and suffering is still there……at least, we will know we TRIED TO LVIE to the FULLEST in the TOUGHEST OF TIMES, and in doing so, MELLY WILL NOT WIN !   It's like a curse word to MELANOMA you understand………I'm calling it the DOG- the BEAST – the ROTTEN STUFF – the one they gave the BLACK RIBBON  !!!    That's what I'm doing.    BREATHE…………………….

Nancy (very sick devoted wife of 3 X WARRIOR WAYNE)    Just because it's not MELLY, doesn't mean it's not SERIOUS AND AWFUL and GUT WRENCHINLY HARD TO BEAR  !!!    BE WELL………….and call me anything you like….I bet I will laugh about it.  :-))))))))

I am not getting notices that there have been replies to my post.   My hubby told me I had been LAND BLASTED for calling MELANOMA – MELLY …. by someone named ANON.   Oops….there I go again, with that silly nicknaming.   I'm sorry I'm the kind of person that does have a light heart, and I am called the SUPER DUPER NICKNAMER ON FACEBOOK, so there you have it.  GUILTY !    One of the reasons I do that ANON is that I am very, very, very ill myself.   I am in more pain than my precious Wayne has ever seen or experienced in his life with cancer 3 times…….and he will tell you so as my caretaker for 27 years now.     One of the reasons I do take SHORTCUTS (NICKNAMES) is because I'm in so much pain, gut wrenching pain with about a hundred other symptoms to go with it with several illnesses myself, –  but  I need to communicate on the PUTER (short for COMPUTER in case you're wondering)….because I am shut in, and I have no life because of these terribly debilitating illnesses and I can get more typed if I take SHORTCUTS and use NICKNAMES.    Especially if something or someone has 3 syllables, I really take a shortcut.   You are the only  person who has not enjoy my personality and humor in VERY DIRE CIRCUMSTANCES !    200 people on TEAM WAYNE PRAYER WARRIORS and all of them were blessed by the courage and FAITH we/I had to write with such candor, pain, tears, and yet HUMOR.   They all call it MELLY !   Go figure…….   

Sometimes when I'm writing MELLY, I'm actually crying over this AWFUL, GUT WRENCHING, PAINFUL, LIFE STEALING, MURDEROUS ILLNESS.    Does that make you feel better ?    I have a lot more adjectives too, but will spare you.   Like we call ZELBORAF  = Z or ZEL.   Sure not taking anything away from that serious drug that has thus far saved my precious husband's life.   We have been through hell and back in 22 years of fighting cancer and I'm the last person in the world to MAKE FUN OF IT.   I don't know what you did BLACK FRIDAY, but we went shopping……..for our CEMETERY PLOTS !    Yes, I / we do have a wicked sense of humor.   If we don't laugh sometimes, we can't get through it.   We didn't plan Black Friday for it, but it was the only day my legs would hold me up to get there in this serious and GUT WRENCHING PAIN AND SICKNESS I am in.    MELLY IS NOT THE ONLY SERIOUS ILLNESS in this world, ANON, and we all learn how to deal with it without going insane or offing ourselves in our own way.    We choose FAITH, LAUGHTER, RELAXING, MAKING FUN "SOMETIMES", and also CRYING OUR EYEBALLS OUT and SCREAMING TO THE TOP OF THE ROOF WHEN NEEDED.   

Honestly, I don't know if you are the same person that comes on here all the time giving nothing BUT GRIEF, but you might just learn something here about LIVING while we are all still ALIVE !    I bet it's one of my SENSITIVE RELATIVES behind the ANON – which is also why I prolly turned out the way I did.    Having watched my dad eaten to death with cancer took it's toll on me watching all the seriousness –  and for 5 years we were DARED TO HAVE ANY FUN OR LAUGH OR HAVE ANY JOY ABOUT ANYTHING IN LIFE AT ALL !    That is not who I am !!!     You be who you are and let me be who I am…..and you just might find that even in the GUTTER there is JOY and FUN to be found if you allow yourself to.      

I wish you the very best.   I pray the Lord heals you and everyone on this board.   I pray you find the COURAGE to come out from behind that MASK  of ANON you wear when you are CUTTING SOMEONE DOWN FOR SOMETHING YOU DON'T LIKE, for no good reason at all.   You could not find a kinder, more loving person in the world if you tried than I am,  but my personality is what it is.   LET GO AND STOP TRYING TO "CONTROL" people.  It really is OK to be JOYFUL and HAVE FUN sometimes – even while bawling.   TRY IT – you might like it and it might just lighten your load as well.

I'm very sorry for your cancer.   I'm sorry you are suffering.   I'm sorry you can't find any light.   I'm sorry you have to take it out on me, but that's OK, I can take it, because I've been through enough in my life to take a bashing and KEEP ON SMILING and KEEP on TRYING to make folks smile every now and then in the darkest of situations (which is what I do as a counselor to many with many devastating problems from my own bed).     I hope you can find that too……it really does help to make the darkness a little lighter, and while the pain and suffering is still there……at least, we will know we TRIED TO LVIE to the FULLEST in the TOUGHEST OF TIMES, and in doing so, MELLY WILL NOT WIN !   It's like a curse word to MELANOMA you understand………I'm calling it the DOG- the BEAST – the ROTTEN STUFF – the one they gave the BLACK RIBBON  !!!    That's what I'm doing.    BREATHE…………………….

Nancy (very sick devoted wife of 3 X WARRIOR WAYNE)    Just because it's not MELLY, doesn't mean it's not SERIOUS AND AWFUL and GUT WRENCHINLY HARD TO BEAR  !!!    BE WELL………….and call me anything you like….I bet I will laugh about it.  :-))))))))

TINA D – forgot to answer your question.

YES, they did take Wayne off ZEL for 4 days before Cath,  and 4 days after.    He loved it. 🙂    Felt better the first day off.

Dr. B. said they do that because they just do not know what it will do with anesthesia, drugs, etc., so they do the 4 days before and after just to cover bases.    

It's a shame that when cancer is gone one has to keep taking those awful meds that do such horrible things to the body, but also saves the life.   Wayne is suffering some sure nuff serious neuropathy….bless his heart…now he is looking at getting on Nuerotin on top of all beta blockers, etc. he has to take for heart.    I cry every day he has to goto work in that pain to keep us afloat.    

GOD HAS BEEN GOOD TO SHOW US THESE HIDDENT THINGS JUST IN THE NICK OF TIME to get something done about them.   That was another WHEW……

I guess more than anything when I call Melanoma MELLY I am saying:    YOU WILL NOT WIN….WE WILL KICK YOU TO THE CURB……like I don't even want to pay it the respect of calling it by it's real name.   A STRONG DISLIKE FOR and DISRESPECT for the MEAN DEVIL that is it.     THE ENEMY…….and we will overcome you !    I HATE IT WITH MY WHOLE HEART and it's my way of degrading it, like it's also called THE BEAST !

So glad you have come to some peace about WHERE YOU ARE GOING.   Each has to make their own decisions about what they can do and I know they will take very good care of you, especially since you can GET BACK there for checkups etc.   That's very important.   Please keep us updated.   

KEEP THE FAITH GIRL,  and GOD'S BEST BLESSINGS AND HEALTH TO YOU, 

Nancy (devoted wife of 3 X warrior Wayne)  🙂

TINA D – forgot to answer your question.

YES, they did take Wayne off ZEL for 4 days before Cath,  and 4 days after.    He loved it. 🙂    Felt better the first day off.

Dr. B. said they do that because they just do not know what it will do with anesthesia, drugs, etc., so they do the 4 days before and after just to cover bases.    

It's a shame that when cancer is gone one has to keep taking those awful meds that do such horrible things to the body, but also saves the life.   Wayne is suffering some sure nuff serious neuropathy….bless his heart…now he is looking at getting on Nuerotin on top of all beta blockers, etc. he has to take for heart.    I cry every day he has to goto work in that pain to keep us afloat.    

GOD HAS BEEN GOOD TO SHOW US THESE HIDDENT THINGS JUST IN THE NICK OF TIME to get something done about them.   That was another WHEW……

I guess more than anything when I call Melanoma MELLY I am saying:    YOU WILL NOT WIN….WE WILL KICK YOU TO THE CURB……like I don't even want to pay it the respect of calling it by it's real name.   A STRONG DISLIKE FOR and DISRESPECT for the MEAN DEVIL that is it.     THE ENEMY…….and we will overcome you !    I HATE IT WITH MY WHOLE HEART and it's my way of degrading it, like it's also called THE BEAST !

So glad you have come to some peace about WHERE YOU ARE GOING.   Each has to make their own decisions about what they can do and I know they will take very good care of you, especially since you can GET BACK there for checkups etc.   That's very important.   Please keep us updated.   

KEEP THE FAITH GIRL,  and GOD'S BEST BLESSINGS AND HEALTH TO YOU, 

Nancy (devoted wife of 3 X warrior Wayne)  🙂

TINA D – forgot to answer your question.

YES, they did take Wayne off ZEL for 4 days before Cath,  and 4 days after.    He loved it. 🙂    Felt better the first day off.

Dr. B. said they do that because they just do not know what it will do with anesthesia, drugs, etc., so they do the 4 days before and after just to cover bases.    

It's a shame that when cancer is gone one has to keep taking those awful meds that do such horrible things to the body, but also saves the life.   Wayne is suffering some sure nuff serious neuropathy….bless his heart…now he is looking at getting on Nuerotin on top of all beta blockers, etc. he has to take for heart.    I cry every day he has to goto work in that pain to keep us afloat.    

GOD HAS BEEN GOOD TO SHOW US THESE HIDDENT THINGS JUST IN THE NICK OF TIME to get something done about them.   That was another WHEW……

I guess more than anything when I call Melanoma MELLY I am saying:    YOU WILL NOT WIN….WE WILL KICK YOU TO THE CURB……like I don't even want to pay it the respect of calling it by it's real name.   A STRONG DISLIKE FOR and DISRESPECT for the MEAN DEVIL that is it.     THE ENEMY…….and we will overcome you !    I HATE IT WITH MY WHOLE HEART and it's my way of degrading it, like it's also called THE BEAST !

So glad you have come to some peace about WHERE YOU ARE GOING.   Each has to make their own decisions about what they can do and I know they will take very good care of you, especially since you can GET BACK there for checkups etc.   That's very important.   Please keep us updated.   

KEEP THE FAITH GIRL,  and GOD'S BEST BLESSINGS AND HEALTH TO YOU, 

Nancy (devoted wife of 3 X warrior Wayne)  🙂

I am not getting notices that there have been replies to my post.   My hubby told me I had been LAND BLASTED for calling MELANOMA – MELLY …. by someone named ANON.   Oops….there I go again, with that silly nicknaming.   I'm sorry I'm the kind of person that does have a light heart, and I am called the SUPER DUPER NICKNAMER ON FACEBOOK, so there you have it.  GUILTY !    One of the reasons I do that ANON is that I am very, very, very ill myself.   I am in more pain than my precious Wayne has ever seen or experienced in his life with cancer 3 times…….and he will tell you so as my caretaker for 27 years now.     One of the reasons I do take SHORTCUTS (NICKNAMES) is because I'm in so much pain, gut wrenching pain with about a hundred other symptoms to go with it with several illnesses myself, –  but  I need to communicate on the PUTER (short for COMPUTER in case you're wondering)….because I am shut in, and I have no life because of these terribly debilitating illnesses and I can get more typed if I take SHORTCUTS and use NICKNAMES.    Especially if something or someone has 3 syllables, I really take a shortcut.   You are the only  person who has not enjoy my personality and humor in VERY DIRE CIRCUMSTANCES !    200 people on TEAM WAYNE PRAYER WARRIORS and all of them were blessed by the courage and FAITH we/I had to write with such candor, pain, tears, and yet HUMOR.   They all call it MELLY !   Go figure…….   

Sometimes when I'm writing MELLY, I'm actually crying over this AWFUL, GUT WRENCHING, PAINFUL, LIFE STEALING, MURDEROUS ILLNESS.    Does that make you feel better ?    I have a lot more adjectives too, but will spare you.   Like we call ZELBORAF  = Z or ZEL.   Sure not taking anything away from that serious drug that has thus far saved my precious husband's life.   We have been through hell and back in 22 years of fighting cancer and I'm the last person in the world to MAKE FUN OF IT.   I don't know what you did BLACK FRIDAY, but we went shopping……..for our CEMETERY PLOTS !    Yes, I / we do have a wicked sense of humor.   If we don't laugh sometimes, we can't get through it.   We didn't plan Black Friday for it, but it was the only day my legs would hold me up to get there in this serious and GUT WRENCHING PAIN AND SICKNESS I am in.    MELLY IS NOT THE ONLY SERIOUS ILLNESS in this world, ANON, and we all learn how to deal with it without going insane or offing ourselves in our own way.    We choose FAITH, LAUGHTER, RELAXING, MAKING FUN "SOMETIMES", and also CRYING OUR EYEBALLS OUT and SCREAMING TO THE TOP OF THE ROOF WHEN NEEDED.   

Honestly, I don't know if you are the same person that comes on here all the time giving nothing BUT GRIEF, but you might just learn something here about LIVING while we are all still ALIVE !    I bet it's one of my SENSITIVE RELATIVES behind the ANON – which is also why I prolly turned out the way I did.    Having watched my dad eaten to death with cancer took it's toll on me watching all the seriousness –  and for 5 years we were DARED TO HAVE ANY FUN OR LAUGH OR HAVE ANY JOY ABOUT ANYTHING IN LIFE AT ALL !    That is not who I am !!!     You be who you are and let me be who I am…..and you just might find that even in the GUTTER there is JOY and FUN to be found if you allow yourself to.      

I wish you the very best.   I pray the Lord heals you and everyone on this board.   I pray you find the COURAGE to come out from behind that MASK  of ANON you wear when you are CUTTING SOMEONE DOWN FOR SOMETHING YOU DON'T LIKE, for no good reason at all.   You could not find a kinder, more loving person in the world if you tried than I am,  but my personality is what it is.   LET GO AND STOP TRYING TO "CONTROL" people.  It really is OK to be JOYFUL and HAVE FUN sometimes – even while bawling.   TRY IT – you might like it and it might just lighten your load as well.

I'm very sorry for your cancer.   I'm sorry you are suffering.   I'm sorry you can't find any light.   I'm sorry you have to take it out on me, but that's OK, I can take it, because I've been through enough in my life to take a bashing and KEEP ON SMILING and KEEP on TRYING to make folks smile every now and then in the darkest of situations (which is what I do as a counselor to many with many devastating problems from my own bed).     I hope you can find that too……it really does help to make the darkness a little lighter, and while the pain and suffering is still there……at least, we will know we TRIED TO LVIE to the FULLEST in the TOUGHEST OF TIMES, and in doing so, MELLY WILL NOT WIN !   It's like a curse word to MELANOMA you understand………I'm calling it the DOG- the BEAST – the ROTTEN STUFF – the one they gave the BLACK RIBBON  !!!    That's what I'm doing.    BREATHE…………………….

Nancy (very sick devoted wife of 3 X WARRIOR WAYNE)    Just because it's not MELLY, doesn't mean it's not SERIOUS AND AWFUL and GUT WRENCHINLY HARD TO BEAR  !!!    BE WELL………….and call me anything you like….I bet I will laugh about it.  :-))))))))